Letting Go of Expectations

From hectic life in the USA to island life as a stay-at-home-wife, this blog follows the musings of an anxious Type-A as she learns to slow down and tune in to the important things in life

 

Tag: mindful living

The Art of Slow Living

Slow living is not something I’ve ever been good at. I’ve always had things to do, places to be, and people to meet. It wasn’t that being really busy made me particularly happy, it was just how I thought life was supposed to be. And how it would always be.

When we moved to the island and I started the blog, though, one of my main goals was figuring out how to live more simply, be happier, and disconnect from how frantic life is at times. It’s a journey I’ve been on – at times more mindfully than others – for the last year.

Letting slow living into my life is something that has changed gradually. In many ways, it has been like watching a kid or a plant or a pet grow. When you’re with them all the time, you don’t notice how big they’ve gotten until you look back at a picture or previous memory. Then, all of a sudden, you realize how much they have changed.

That’s how it was with learning to slow down my life. It’s not that I’ve noticed a huge change from one day to the next, but rather when I look back on my life a year ago, I notice that relaxation and slow living was harder then.

The Difference a Year Has Made

For instance, I have a partially written blog post titled, “Why Being Too Busy is Bad.” I didn’t get very far into writing it, and for the life of me I can’t figure out where I was going with it. Now, it seems obvious to me that being constantly too busy could be a bad thing. A year ago, though, that was quite a novel concept.

I was also in a yoga class recently. At the beginning, the instructor led us through some relaxation breathing and reminded everyone to be present on their mat for the hour. Our responsibilities would be waiting for us at the end of class, but it doesn’t do any good to think about them or worry during the class.

I put aside my thoughts of what I would be having for dinner after yoga – which can be quite a task for someone who loves food like Pooh loves honey. In that moment of peace, I remembered trying to settle into yoga class last year.

A year ago, I was in the middle of my “quarter life crisis”. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life or how I was going to figure it out. For once in my life, I wasn’t working or in school, and that lack of identity made me really uncomfortable. I had no idea what to do with myself during any free time, which I suddenly had a lot of.

Settling into yoga class then was an active struggle. Now, after a lot more practice and a year working on slow living, it is a whole lot easier.

The Benefits of Slow Living

Learning how to slow down my life has been incredibly rewarding. I no longer feel like I need to schedule something for every moment of every day. I have time to appreciate the little things, like a nice cup of tea in the morning.

It has also helped me to get my anxiety under control. Removing the extra tension caused by the fast and frantic nature of my life lowered my overall stress level. I still have anxiety, but I feel better equipped at managing it now.

It also makes island time much more enjoyable. If you’re in a rush, the extra time that it takes for things to get done on an island can easily make you frustrated. Whether it’s waiting for food in a restaurant or waiting behind a car that has stopped to chat with someone on the side of the road, I no longer feel tense when something takes longer than expected.

One of the things I appreciate the most is being able to relax. Free time used to be my nemesis. I could schedule it into a day, but I would never actually relax enough to enjoy it. Now, I appreciate a lazy Sunday morning with a good book or sitting outside and watching the sunset in the evening – without fixating on what I have to do next.

The Key to Slowing Down

I believe that slow living is more of an art than a science. There is no right or wrong way to go about it, just try things. Maybe going on walks helps you slow down. Maybe it’s playing an instrument, or drawing. Don’t be too rigid about it, though. If what you’re doing doesn’t make you happier, try something else.

It doesn’t have to be a drastic lifestyle change. Maybe you just decide to be more mindful and present in the moment for part of your day, like on your commute to work. Just remember that the key is time.

At first, your mind will wander. Take walking for example. At the beginning, you might spend the whole walk thinking about work, or the kids, or your to-do list. Over time, though, your mind will slow down. You will begin to notice the trees and the sky and the changing seasons.

Maybe that’s the first lesson in slow living. Coming to terms with the fact that it is going to take time and practice to get good at it. It will take work. As an anxious over-thinker myself, I know it’s not easy.

Then again, things that are worth it never are.

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3 Habits to Boost Happiness

One of the goals that I have during my extended stay on a Caribbean island is to learn how to live a happier, more meaningful, stress-free life. Though life on an island has its perks and lessons, sunny skies and sandy beaches are not a cure-all. They certainly help, but daily household tasks, financial worries, anxiety, and a history of living a busy, stressful life don’t just disappear.

With that in mind, I decided to look up some techniques that I can incorporate into my daily routine to increase happiness. Since my other goal is to share this journey with you, here are the results of my search!


1. Be More Mindful

The Oxford Dictionary defines mindfulness as “A mental state achieved by focusing one’s awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one’s feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations…”. While mindfulness can be a type of meditation where you focus on the sensations around you and bring your mind back to those sensations whenever it starts to wander, I like to think about it more as a way to go through your day.

Instead of getting caught up in the thoughts in your head, try to take a little more notice of the world around you. Maybe being mindful is something you try to do throughout your day. Pull yourself out of your thoughts occasionally and really observe where you are and what is happening around you. Observe how you feel or what you are thinking, and accept those thoughts without trying to change them.

Or, maybe, you set aside a little time for being more mindful. My favorite way to do this is to go on a walk and really take in the color of the sky and the sights of the plants or people or terrain around you. Listen to the noises in the distance and feel how warm or cold the air is. Coexist there with your thoughts.

However you decide to incorporate mindfulness into your day, it can help you to feel happier, reduce stress, and live life more meaningfully outside of your own head.


2. Meditate

We’ve all heard of the many benefits of meditation, such as reduced stress and better focus. People who regularly practice meditation have also reported physical improvements, such as lower blood pressure and a stronger immune system. Meditation has become so well-known in recent years for improving both physical and mental health that a number of highly successful companies have even incorporated it into the work days of their employees.

A lot of research is being done into the why’s and how’s of meditation and its effects. One scientific study showed that changes in the brains of study participants could be detected after practicing meditation for just 8 weeks. Another study has shown that meditation can decrease rumination, which is a common feature of both anxiety and depression.

Meditation can seem daunting, and it can be really hard to clear your thoughts and focus just on your breath or your surroundings. There are tons of resources out there to help get you started, though! Meditating can be as easy as getting an app on your phone or finding a guided meditation video.

Remember, meditating is a skill that will take practice, but the time you put into it will be well worth the rewards in both physical health and happiness.


3. Start a Gratitude Journal

Expressing gratitude is something we do every day, at least in small amounts. We thank the person who holds a door open for us. The person who rings up our purchase thanks us for shopping and tells us to have a nice day. With a little extra effort, you can let gratitude improve your life in a number of ways.

In one study, it was found that people who wrote about things that they were grateful for exhibited more positivity about their lives than people who wrote about either neutral or negative life events. Other studies have contributed to the long list of benefits that gratitude can provide, ranging from better mental and physical wellbeing to stronger relationships.

One easy way to experience more gratitude in your life is to start a gratitude journal. The idea is simple. Just write down the things you are grateful for, and make the commitment to write in your journal consistently, whether that is every day, once a week, or anywhere in between. You can also check out these tips, and find gratitude journal apps on android or apple!

If taking just a few minutes a day to write down five things that you are grateful for can increase your overall happiness in life, why not start today?


The biggest thing to remember is that happiness is a journey, not a destination. And most of the time, journeys are hard work. It takes commitment to develop a new habit and planning to fit it into your busy schedule. If that new habit can help you reduce stress and improve your quality of life, though, I think you’ll be glad you did it!

Which one (or two, or three) of these techniques do you want to try? Leave your answer in the comments below!

Learning to Live on Island Time

When we were preparing to come to Grenada, many people warned us about “island time”. They said that everything was going to take longer, from receiving a call back to getting food at your table in a restaurant. We prepared ourselves as much as we could for things to take more time than they did in the hustle-and-bustle of the US.

We even experienced island time before we got to Grenada when we were looking for apartments. Some rental companies seemed aware of the culture of instant customer service that most students coming to the island were used to and replied to our inquiries right away. Others, however, took days to hear back from, if we got a response at all.

It turned out that we were apartment hunting at the same time as a lot of other people, and places were filling up quickly. This, combined with slow response times from many of the people that we contacted, led to my anxiety-fueled fear that we would never find a decent apartment.

As is the case with many thoughts that are a product of anxiety, this fear of not finding a good apartment in time did not turn into reality. We did, in fact, find an apartment that we like very much. However, this first encounter with island time left me a little apprehensive about living with it once we got to Grenada.

Now that we have been here for a few months, we have had plenty of encounters with island time. One of the first things that another student told us was to multiply any amount of time that someone gives you by three. For example, if someone says that they will meet you in 15 minutes, expect them to be there in 45. I was skeptical of this at first, but it has proven accurate so far!

Another aspect of island time is that places might not be open when you want them to be. Coming from a college town in the US where you can get any type of food you want at 3am, I was surprised when people here boasted about the restaurant (yes, singular) that offers 24-hour takeout.

After I finished grieving the loss of easily accessible fast food and considered the relative size of the college town here compared to the one I was used to, it made sense that there were fewer places to get a quick bite to eat any hour of the day or night. At least places would be open during the day at their regularly scheduled hours, right?

Wrong.

One of the first restaurants that we went to was closed on a random week day with no indication as to why. There was a holiday earlier in the week, and my guess is that they decided to take a couple extra days off. Oh well, if you can’t go to a restaurant, at least you can always rely on the grocery store, right?

Wrong again.

The grocery store’s recent floor re-surfacing project, which already involved limited hours compared to their regular schedule, ended up being extended about an extra week. Their hours became more limited, and they even opened later than their already delayed start time on at least one occasion.

Any one of those things happening when I lived in the US would have driven me crazy. Now, though, I just have to laugh about it.

You see, the key to living with island time is living on island time. This might seem obvious, but as a person who always kept busy and had a rigid schedule, I wasn’t sure that I would be able to make the transition. No doubt living the stay-at-home-wife life made it easier, but I don’t feel like I had to make an effort to live on island time. Island time found me, and it has been incredibly rewarding.

When I bought a vehicle from a local, what started out as his gracious offer to help me get car insurance turned into an all-day affair where I got to try authentic oil-down and see beautiful parts of the island that I wouldn’t have otherwise. That was only possible because I allowed myself to be on island time.

Not being able to get groceries when you set out to could easily make your day worse. But when you’re not rushing to get things done based on some pre-determined timeline, you have the opportunity to think about the things that are truly important – the things that really need to get done – and you are able to prioritize those. Maybe you can even prioritize something that you want to do.

I realize not everyone will have the opportunity to experience a slow, purposeful life lived on island time. It is hard to slow down when commuting and work and exercising and running errands and social engagements can take up so much of your time. I know that after two years on island time, I will return to that life, and it will be hard to hold onto the lessons that I’ve learned here while slowing down.

However, the three things that I have learned on island time and hope to keep with me throughout my life are: 1) Make it a priority to leave a little time for yourself each day. Do something that you want to do, not something that you have to do. 2) Don’t feel like time spent relaxing is time wasted. Those moments spent in slowness, either by yourself or with others, are likely to be the things you remember most – and most fondly – later on. 3) Live deliberately and with purpose, instead of just reacting to what life throws at you. This will make even the mundane moments more worthwhile and vibrant.

I can’t take island time with me, and while I’m inclined to be sad about that, that would go against the true meaning of living on island time. Island time is, at its essence, about being more mindful and present in the current moment.

And that’s something I can always take with me.